Tuesday, February 3, 2015

I wrote the following poem in October 2014.  I was in a meeting when the subject of identity came up and as I listened the first few lines came to me.  The rest followed nearly effortlessly and the end just sort of fell in my lap.  My post yesterday was about the many things we get so focused on, but that leave us feeling unfulfilled and empty.  When we have our fill of disappointment some of us are given a glimpse of that which truly identifies us, truly gives our lives meaning and substance:  Love.  This poem says about the same thing, just in a different way.  

"Who Are You?"

Who are you deep down
in the cellar of your soul?

Are you authentic

Or playing a role?

Are you your needs
Your hungers and your passions
Or are you your dreams
Or the result of your actions?

Is there a real self
Gestating within
Waiting to be born
Out of what you have been?

Are you reaching your potential
Or only an idling engine?
Is your will free
Or ruled by religion?

Are you your feelings
Your hormones' influence
Or are you your relations
Pursuing congruence?

Are you your illness
Or defined by psychosis
Contained in the specifics
Of a doctor's diagnosis

Are you your disappointments 
that have dragged you down
or are you your successes
That you wear like a crown?

Are you your weight
Or the shape or your face
Cultures’ defined beauty
The cage with no space?

Do you run from yourself
With syringe, drag or snort
Do you hide from the mirror
Pickled in vodka and port?

Are you the superstar
Your name in the news
Talents on field or film
Any exploit you choose

Have you become your job
The labor or work
A nameless maker of stuff
for paycheck and perk?

Are you your money
The net-worth of accounts
Buying distractions until
The checks start to bounce

"You are what you eat
The nutritionists' claim
"You're the sum of your thoughts"
Is the philosophers' frame

"Galactic debris"
Astronomers say that we are
"We're the living and conscious
Dust of a star"

A web of natural selection
Some say we come from
The eons of evolution
Weeding out the weak and the dumb.

Do appetites and genetics
Nature and nurture
Environment and experience
Determine your future?

Can science examine
the heart and really know it?
Probe mysteries, parse soul
Or should we ask the poet?

Perhaps you're a canvas
On easel and waiting
For your colors and image
And the artist who's painting

Is there a purpose
In the days that you live
In the who that you are
In the kindness you give?

Have you forgotten your name
Beneath all of this dust
The name you've been given
By the One you should trust?

Who you become
Is a story being told
By the Author of days
Penned in sunlight and gold

Circumstances are naught
To the One with the pen
Nothing prevails
Not darkness nor sin

In your hands find the sword
As in your heart courage is written
By facing hidden fears
The dragons are smitten

Not determined by cells
Or the things that you learn
Not the things that you do
Or the things that you earn

The who that you are
is not the shouted at and shoved.
Nay, the real who that you are

Is the Author’s beloved.

© Stephen Carl

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